jealousy

"jealousy is the pain which man feels from
the apprehension that he is NOT equally beloved by the person whom he
entirely loves."

wow watt'a quote!!!
but that's true...

i've never felt this way before...
am i jealous or what?

but that's true...
i'm afraid~
afraid of this feeling...
the feeling of being cheated and neglected
that's why i trust no one...

demmit
but now i'm experiencing it!
and trust me...
it burns!!!
XDDD

hahahaha
i'm talking nonsense again
i hate it!!!


grrrrrrrrrrrrrr
im uber jealous that i wished him dead meat!!!
am i bad?
am i bad?
rawr!!!

now that i've experienced this fck'n feeling
i'll never trust him ever again!!!
i swearrr~uuuuuu

i hate you!!!
how dare you!!!
how dare you....?

NOVEMBER 28 '08

im back...
it's been a while...
my mouse got busted!!!
harhar
new mouse in the house!!!
thank you!!!

what can i say?
what should i say?

oh! about FRIDAY!
that was FUN!!!

we decided to celebrate something~
XDDD
but sad thing is that we're only 4
namely: jelo,claire,moi and iban...
boo-hoo the others didn't came,
but that was okay!
we still did have a great time~

after that we went off to school
but we're totally late
so we decided to head off aning's house...

that's it...
wahaha!!!
all i can say is that we're fine
we're all fine!

moi song for joo!!!

Can't Smile Without You- Barry Manilow

You know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you

You came along just like a song
And brightened my day
Who would have believed that you were part of a dream
Now it all seems light years away

And now you know I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel sad when you're sad
I feel glad when you're glad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile

Can't Smile Without YOu- Barry Manilow

Now some people say happiness takes so very long to find
Well, I'm finding it hard leaving your love behind me

And you see I can't smile without you
I can't smile without you
I can't laugh and I can't sing
I'm finding it hard to do anything
You see I feel glad when you're glad
I feel sad when you're sad
If you only knew what I'm going through
I just can't smile without you


i lalab thish song
go on laugh at it
i hate you
demm't!!!!

joo are moi AKAI ITO

have you recalled?
i've once called you my AKAI ITO...
indeed you are...

honestly i don't believe in such things...
though...
i still hope.

actually, i avoid using such term...
until you came...
i just wish that you're the one...
my akai ito.
akai ito... soul mate...
do they really exist?
it's kind'a hard for me to believe in such myths...
though, there's no harm in believing!

Akai ito..it was said as the RED STRING OF FATE...
do you believe in fate?
do you believe in destiny?

-belief originating from Chinese legend. According to this myth, the gods tie an invisible red string around the ankles of men and women who are destined to be soul mates and will one day marry each other. According to Chinese legend, the deity in charge of "the red thread" is believed to be Yuelaothe old lunar matchmaker god who is also in charge of marriages.

"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet,
regardless of time, place, or circumstance.
The thread may stretch or tangle,
but it will never break."
- an ancient Chinese belief

The two people connected by the red thread are said to be destined lovers, regardless of time, place or circumstances. It is said that this magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break. This myth is similar to the Western concept of soulmates or a twin flame.
The legend has since also become a popular myth in Japanese culture and other East Asian cultures.

you are my soulmate..
i dunno how far we'll go...
but one thing is for sure...
i'll do anything to keep you~my AKAI ITO.

happy haloween

weeee it's haloween
happy haloween minna san!!!
*waves*
happy birthday mitch
love it!!!

i woke up real early for no reason...
it's my UNlucky day indeed!!!

i just uploaded some pics from our swimming
then one of my classmates text'd me saying:
"punta kayo here sa schoo!!!now na half day lang ang school!"
hell-yeah with matching exclamation point!
XDDD
so i rushed off to school!

i was very much relieved to know my grade in biochem
wooooooot!!!
i love it~ 1.75
XDDDD

i was able to apply for the dean's lister
c'mon!!!

but i didn't even had a chance to see toooot
so i decided to meet my mum
so i waited for about 30mins to know that she's already at the mall
so to compensate for everything...
she treat me at pizza hut~moi fave
bad thing is that my tummy hurt for i have eaten soooo much
i hate it!!!!

i am so damn exhausted
i believed we've already walked 10,000miles inside that mall
we bought toot tooot tooot
i mean SHE bought sooo much
i hate it!!!

well...
that'll be my haloween...
toot and i had a fight
though it's normal
and i can bear with it
im strong!!!

HAPPY in LOVE

Pitong araw lang
'Di natikman ang liwanag, hindi inaalam
'Di makangiti, isip ay sawi sa ligayang ako'y binigyan
'Di ako magkakaganito kundi sayo
Sabihin mo...

'Di kita iiwanan - pangakong 'di pababayaan
Ako'y nandiyan lamang, nababalot... sa isip mo

Ang isip ay pagod, daliri'y baluktot
Wala rin naman, wala rin naman
Hanggang kailan, sana ngayon lang maranasan
'Wag mo akong saktan
'Di ako magkakaganito kundi sayo
Sabihin mo

'Di kita iiwanan - pangakong 'di pababayaan
Ako'y nandiyan lamang, nababalot...

'Di kita iiwanan - pangakong 'di pababayaan
Ako'y nandiyan lamang, nababalot
'Di kita iiwanan - pangakong 'di pababayaan
Ako'y nandiyan lamang, nababalot
'Di kita iiwanan - pangakong 'di pababayaan
Ako'y nandiyan lamang, nababalot

another fave from my fave band..
HALE
lalab it <3 feel'n mushy huh?
nah!!!
im just IN LOVE!!!
that'll be my promise..
"di kita iiwanan...
pangakong 'di pababayaan..."

METALFRED's letter

DISCLAIMER: i did NOT wrote this entry...this is from my friend METALFRED

Napapadalas love topics ah XD

(Pa english ha, hirap ako magtagalog sa mga ganito eh XD)

The word "BEST FRIEND"

Best means top, number one, etc.

Friend means someone close to you.

Together it becomes a special word, a word that you chose to label someone with because of his/her actions that brought you happiness and contentment as a "FRIEND".

But if that certain someone develops a deeper and more sophisticated emotion towards you because of your bond it is more likely to move towards relationship....

If I we're in your situation, and I know that my best friend is tested and proven as a person that is always there every time I need him in every situation that brings me depression and sadness, a person that never left me alone with almost all my problems, a person that accepts me wholeheartedly for who I am despite my negative actions......

Then why not? As long as he knows you and you know him I'm sure your bond can withstand even the harshest of trials ^_^

Ndi kasya kaibigang Nikki XD

Eto yung part two tinagalog ko nalang kasi humahaba pag english ehhhh XD

Ang masasabi ko lang....

Sa panahon ngayon ang isang relsyon ay parang laro nalang sa mata ng karamihan ng kabataan....

Hindi nila nalalaman ang tunay na halaga nito kea kahit maglokohan man sila ok lang.... T_T

Pero kapag seryosohan naman nauuwi sa maagang pagkabuntis at ang dahilan ng karamihan "Kasi mahal ko siya eh!" Wooshoo umamin ka na pare, lasing ka kasi nung ginawa niyo yun XD

Hay buhay.... Kaibigan kung magiging potential BF mo nga yang best mo dapat malinis ang kanyang hangarin at dapat sa purong "PAGMAMAHAL" ang kanyang sadya saiyo....

Yun lang, kung meron man nag aadvice sayo na dinadown ka at puro negative ang resulta bigay mo sakin address ako bhala dun >=)

Lilibre ko na yung lapida niya XD

confused at the moment FINALE

hai hai!!!
hihihi im full of energy today!!!
i had completely regained my consciousness!!!!
XDDD

everything is a-OKAY now!
i mean...
i am not struggling anymore,
and finally all of my confusions are gone..
one thing is sure...

MATA ISH NYAPPY!!!

am i floating or what?
i've never felt this before..
hope it'll last forever...

will always be by your side...
will never leave you behind...
will love you forever...

confused at the moment PART3

i can never believe a person under the influence of alcohol!!!
when you're drunk...
you can be your TRUE self...
but when the effect of the liquor runs out...
you'll definitely forget everything...

after that weird night...
when everything that was said and done was a shock!
will you still remember?
can you still remember...
please try to remember...

i am completely confused at the moment
(once again?)
LMAO

is this the last time?
is it over?
can we still be friends?
XDDD

you've confessed...
i was shocked!
am i happy or what?

random thoughts again...
i hate this shit!!!
the question is:
SO WHAT'S NEXT?
...
you've confessed...
i was shocked!
SO WHAT'S NEXT?

am i too eager to know?
sorry for being so anxious...
i don't want to pressure you...
but i...
i also want to confess...


even though you've already confessed to me...
i'm still confused,
for things aren't clear enough...
you've just said you love me...
and that was it?
you didn't even asked me if i love you too!!!
are you already satisfied with that?!
WTH!!!
are you kidd'n me?!!!

please clear things out...
make it clear...

watashi...
honto ni skitte nandouyou!!!
honto ni...
aishiteru~
demo...
anata no tomodachi kun...
honto gomen!!!

confused at the moment PART2

it's so weird...
last night we're good,
the other day we're not!

it's as if there's this invisible wall separating us from each other.
it's not the usual us...
the way we act, the way we talk, the way we are.
we've been changed!

i dunno when or how...
but we've been totally changed.

come to think of it..
i don't have any right to expect...
we're like this...
and forever will be.

i'm just kind'a sad...
for i cannot truly burst out all of my thoughts
regarding this matter.

well...
i'll just have to be myself again...
regain my consciousness
and
wake up!

-TO BE CONTINUED-

confused at the moment...

weeeeeeee can't explain this feeling...
'coz love is only a feeling!
LULZ

hihihihi
XDDD

NAO MATA!!!!
moi ish nao inlalab
nevah!!!!

i am currently feeling this unexplainable feeling
and it sucks BIG TIME!!!

he's gett'n through my nerves...
and i hate it sooo!!!!
must FORGET...
re-format PLOX!!!

why oh why!!!
why am i unconsciously waiting for his damn text msgs?!

must keep calm and steady...
must fight this stupidity...

NAOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
i am indeed confused...
need someone to talk to...
but i can'tdiscuss this shit out...
LMFAO

i shall observe what will happen next...

-TO BE CONTINUED-

confusions:confusions:confusions:

-DISCLAIMER-
READ AT YOUR OWN RISK
i'm NOT mushy at this moment...
i just feel like blogg'n this topic...
rotflmao


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i just recall'd my professor once ask'd us
what's the difference between:
LOVE and LUST?

honestly i really dunno...
i even thought of:
obsession, stalking and wanting

among these ideas...
i just realized that i really dunno anything about those things...
i dunno what the HECK are their meanings!!!
and if i'm:
a stalker...
maybe obsessed
or
just wanted to belong/be loved
LULZ

and with this realization...
i've decided to search for their meanings...
check 'em out ma' niggah!!!

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Love represents a range of human emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.^[1] Diversity of meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.

(weee that's very confusing...'coz of it's diverse meanings)

Lust is any intense desire or craving for gratification and excitement. Lust can mean strictly sexual lust, although it is also common to speak of a "lust for men", "lust for blood" (bloodlust), or a "lust for power" (or other goals), and to "lust for love". The Greek word which translates as lust is epithymia (επιθυμια), which also is translated into English as "to covet". Originally, the word 'lust' had no negative connotation, but it has developed a connotation of sexual sin.

(weee i'm glad i don't have any lust for love)

Obsessive love is a delusion, and therefore can lead to dangerous consequences. Extreme obsessive love can be the cause of stalking, rape, suicide, and murder, among other things.

(weee i'm NOT obsessed and therefore im NOT a stalker ...what a relieve!)

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my professor also said that:
we cannot define LOVE

for me...
we cannot define LOVE for it has no meaning...
it must be FELT not defined.
LOVE is not about kisses/hugs and other stuffs like that....
LOVE is all around!!!
it's within you and me

LULZ
XDDDD

*CHEERS*
im glad that i'm not a:
stalker or an obsessed maniac
although im still confused...
i'm learning!
and willing to learn...
help moi plox?

credits: wikipedia